stuff

1. i feel bummed coz i may have nice teachers for my subjects, i don't have my friends with me, well some of them... and to think this is our last sem (hopefully) in college... they were kidding me nga na maybe this is when i'll meet my soulmate! hahah! mga yun tlga. but still wouldn't it be nice of my friends and i were together on our last sem? haaay... oh and btw, i have classes everyday na, unlike last sem pero bearable naman...

2. hay naku, swerte tlga ang isang girl ngayon kasi like siya ng good friend ko... he was telling me the chikas and stuff that he did nung sem break and all i could do was slap his shoulders sa gigil.. kakatuwa kasi ang sweet sweet niya and i cannot believe he's capable of doing that... awww... swerte ng girl! bait bait kasi ng friend ko, gwapo pa! haha!

3. i was able to YM with my crush last night.. not heavy crush ha, semi semi lang, tapos junior pa siya.. although i learned madami nagkaka-crush din sa kanya... heheheh! kakatawa nga pic niya dun sa YM window eh...

4. i wanna go swimming! sheeeeet san ba pwede?! argh.. people come on let's go... or if not, at least a body massage?! puhlease?!

5. i'll post my bday videoke with my blockmates soon... fun siya sobra! hehe! :D

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yey! i'm going to a party.. not your run-in-the-mill inuman party but to a children's party nonetheless.. hehe! it's the 1st birthday of sydney/sidney josh reyes! can u believe that i'll only see this cutie after a year since he was born... hindi naman kasi madali umakyat ng langit eh, diba ging?! hehehe! i'll post pixes of the baby soon... haven't posted pixes pala in a while ahh...

btw, who can help me fix a template? argh.. still haven't figured out how.....
xs: i've found an interesting site... wherein i can design my own engagement ring... ehehehe! :D



isn't it nice? wehehehe! wishful thinking lang yan... kaya kung may bf na ko, show this to him ha... hint hint... hahahahah! :p

sembreak, shortbreak

haay i've been officially on sembreak lang last tuesday.. i finished my exams last friday but had to do some school stuff til tuesday so there.... been doing nothing lately and i'm happy!hahaha! imagine days of just lying around in your jammies the whole day, watching tv, surfing the net and watching dvds.... haay the life! but all that is ending too soon... hafta do lotsa SAD documents for our itm class.. oooh btw, our teacher posted the final grades already and i got a B in itm... the grade breakdown for the class is ass follows: A(0) B+ (1) B (5) C+ (13) C (13) D (0) F (0)... And the class average is C+, which my teacher said was fairly high for a PM class...

and so my dream of being a DL is again within reach, but earth to me, i still have my philo to contend with... Lord, *fingers crossed* i wish i could get at least a C man lang.... ayoko tlga ng D eh.... argh baka himatayin ako... if i get a C and get the grades i expect from my other classes, chances are DL ako.... *fingers crossed* please, pagbigyan niyo na ako, last year naman na to eh...

btw, i'd like to thank Mr. Dy-Liacco for giving me a B+ sa final orals... Whoop! He's such a terror, imagine giving 18 F's in just one day for the final orals... Now, he's on the black list of Th151 teachers not-to-be-taken... Haay... because of that, and if my calculations are right, my grade jumped from a C+ to an A... sana lang tama ang computations ko... hahah! owelz, i'd find out soon enough since card day na sa monday... argh!

enweiz, enough about school, sembreak nga eh... so there i have to finish a lot of documents.. i'm wondering nga why our PM hasn't bothered me yet with the documents eh.. heehee! Pero take note, out teacher said we have to be nice to our dear PM since he's in charge of 3% of our final grade... Argh! naku patay na! hahahaha!

what to look forward to this sembreak: laguna outing (hope it pushes through), trick-or-treating sa GH East (wala pa ko costume), swimming (with the fam), videoke (with the BLUE people! hehe! :p) and lotsa more sleep and dvds! hahaha!

come on guys, ENJOY YOUR SEMBREAK while you still can.... :)

on being left behind

i've often wondered why the lives of the people around me seem to have been moving forward, changes and exciting events keep on happening to them and yet none seems to be happening for me...

is it me? or am i just expecting too much on life? i was hoping that by this point in time it would be my turn to tell stories and not remain a listener but the ever listener me just have to contend with the fact that i'll always be like this, being left behind as my friends explore new worlds on their own...

sometimes, i ask myself whether leaving the philippines would be a good idea coz i feel this is not the country for me... maybe if i were in the US i'd have more things to tell and more events happening in my life... come to think of it, my month of stay there had more interesting events than my 21 years in this country... all my friends have exciting things happening to them daily while i don't have much to tell...

now i finally have a break but how will i expect to have exciting things happening to me when i have to work on that f*cking itm project... if i keep on seeing the same people everyday, i'd prolly lose my mind... i need fresh faces, new ones preferably para naman maiba... meeting new people might be my chance to actually have a story to share but how the hell will i meet new people? no chance at all... owelz, 5 months more of this same old same old... maybe by march i'll have a story of my own and not just ride on the stories that happen to my friends....

i jusy don't want to be left behind, that's all...

Mah Birthday

first of all, i wanna thank all those who remembered my birthday... i'm grateful that u spent a moment out of your hectic schedules to greet me... may mga nakalimot ng alang (kaya medyo hurt ako) hehe! hmmm, hindi ko rin sila greet sa bday nila! :p hehe! enweiz, probably mga busy lang.. pero still...

so what did i do today? nothing illegal although i'm already legal! haha! i brought my mommy to the airport since she is, again, on a trip, this time to australia and new zealand.. gosh i can't take note of all the places she's been to, prolly hte whole world, except turkey, greece and egypt cguro kasi yun ang pupuntahan namin sa april eh! yahoo! i'm digressing... so after namin hatid si mommy sa airport, punta kami ni daddy sa office niya, SVI coz he had to sign some papers.. then we went to greenhills dahil i requested to eat at my fave resto... can u guys guess kung alin? none other than House of Minis Steakhouse.... haay sarap! heaven na heaven ako kanina eh... then we went to eisenhower to get something... then we went home na and i slept na! hahah! woke up around 530 para sana mag-aral 4 theo orals pero started mga 630 na... patigil-tigil and now i'm stuck with 3 more thesis statements to go... eh ang kaso 5 lang yun so in short, 2 palang nasasagot ko... hahahaha!

owelz.... so there... thanks again for those who remembered, you know who you are.... lalo na sa mga kasama ko ng 12midnight kanina at kausap sa phone... salamat salamat! :D

sheeet 21 na ako! :p

the week that was

let me start by saying that i'm currently being stressed by this ITM deliverable... my part is the risk management and before you know i'll have a risk applicable to me... maybe it'll look like this..

Description of Risk: blueG has gone blind from too much computer exposure
Prevention Plan: Do not do your part until your astigmatism has turned for the better.
Possible Cause: Too much time doing ITM project (acceptable if for internet use)Contingency Plan: Stop this crap!
Trigger Points: blueG starts seeing double

hehe! i'm such a geek... anyway if you'd rather skip the part about rantings and blessings, stop right here...

last week was such a roller coaster ride. it started with me getting sick last sunday, and to think it was the start of the hell week. then come monday, i had a misunderstanding with a close friend of mine. i also had to finish lots of stuff for the MIS paper (god i wished for sleep and rest that night, unfortunately i didn't)... come tuesday night, i had to cram a part of the MIS paper that was supposedly the part of our other groupmate. in addition to that, my puppy died (well you've read that entry)... wednesday started okay naman coz my friends were cheering me up naman and making me laugh pero come philo time, things turned for the worse... i got my philo paper back and it was a fat letter D.. eeecckk! lord, i felt so bad back then... i felt hopeless coz 1) my other scores are C and D, and i cannot ever have a D in the card or my parents including me will be upset... i cannot hold myself anymore and just cried after philo class... thanks to my philo classmates coz they did their best to cheer me up... much love to melbs, ian, tim, redge, jet and abbie and other classmates who saw me...

then i had to contend with the fact that we had an MIS defense to face even after all the stress... but i think the turning point of that week came during the defense... seeing my favorite teacher nodding in approval and laughing at times made me feel good... as if everything i've worked hard for is actually worth it and is being paid off... thursday, we had a guest speaker from TAPE (the producer of Eat Bulaga) for our broadcast mgt class... it was so much fun and she was able to share a lot of experiences with eat bulaga... that same night, our philo group studied again for the upsoming orals... laugh trip sobra.. chesca, a philo classmate, was there with us and we actually felt we've known each other forever... sobrang astiig! tawa ang aral at the same time... friday was the best of them all... i got my ITM midterms back and i did okay by standards, got exempted in a major (from a deadly final maguyon exam) with a grade of A and made up with a close friend of mine, went to the Blue eagle corner to pinpoint the gift that a friend will buy for me.. hehe! he asked me to point what i want and the size para daw yun na lang gift niya sakin... then spent the whole night studying for my dreaded philo orals the following day... miraculously, i understood 9 out of 10 thesis statements...

i just had to share that when i was reviewing for my philo orals, i went for a bathroom break and as i was putting my glasses back on to resume my review, everything started shaking.. i thought that my glasses were already of lower grade when i noticed my cabinets shaking! omg! an earthquake... i saw our chandeliers shaking and i just had to stand under the doorway until it stopped for awhile then i dashed to my parents' room where i stayed till its all over... pero the paranoia stuck.. i felt that it might come back again...

so anywayz, come saturday i was a nervous wreck but surprisingly, i answered the thesis calmly and i got the thesis i understood the most! YAHOO! there is a God! i hope i got an okay grade... goodness i badly need it! *sigh* after that i had a final presentation for broadcast mgt that afternoon and i survived with minor glitches although it was soooo overtime... good thing ma'am anson-roa fed us with sandwiches... hehe! basta pagkain ayos ako! hahaha!

so in the end, here i am currently finishing this thing...

innocent until proven guilty

this week is getting worse and worse by the minute. i am not only plagued by tons of deliverables, homeworks, projects and quizzes, but problems outside school as well.

yesterday, I entered this old classroom of mine and proceeded to my seat. i saw my kabarkada, who happens to be my seatmate, and decided to chat with her. She replied in a manner unusual of her. Since it was her defense that afternoon, i thought maybe that was the reason why she was pissed... So i decided not to bother her anymore. Later that period, a classmate of ours talked to her and i noticed the difference in her treatment of our classmate from the way she treated me..

I let it slip my mind for the evening since my mind is preoccupied with schoolwork until i woke up today. I texted my other kabarkada, knowing she'd know if the other is mad or not. She told me that she's not mad naman daw but is naguguluhan coz there were times daw that i'm not namamansin whilst i do sometimes..

I texted the kabarkada asking why she was like that yesterday and this is what she told me...
"Well, m nt really mad medjo naguguluhan na ko sa yo na minsan nakakainis na. sbi mo we're frnds, na i shud be open e parng ndi mo ko kaibgan, minsan kakausapin mo minsan ndi. do frnds do that?and to think na i thought u wer one of my closest frnds. mnsan its as if ndi mo ko kabrkada. kng meron man cgurong person na id feel comfy with kaw un pero i fil d opsite wd u. ung tipong naiilang. dfinitely uv changed. cguro dpat masanay na ko. dnt get me wrong. ndi ako nagseselos or kng anoman sa frnds mo. cguro kakaiba lng cya 4 me kc nga kabrkada kta. im nt saying dis para makipagaway. cnasbi ko wt i thnk nd fil."

o diba? this is too much to take on a single blow, especially if i'm not aware at all that she was feeling that way pala.. she judged me merely because of an instance or two that i snubbed her. it's not my fault naman that i have more friends than her. nevertheless, i never treated her any lesser. i mean come on more than half my life she was already there and now because of this she's upset na... maybe at those times she thought i snubbed her, i was feeling bad, but did she care to know that? no, she just assumed.... she must think really low of me...

in fairness to my other kabarkada, who kept on tellinmg me na i should talk to the other, i did the texting first even if i feel that i didn't do anything wrong because she reiterated to me na sayang naman kung may patampu-tampuhan pa... although i feel na it's always me who does the apologizing, i did. but to be perfectly honest, i wasn't comfortable doing it kasi i was hurt and i feel innocent of those accusations.

what would u feel if on the most stressful part of your sem, a friend u trust suddenly tells u all these without even thinking if it's based on sumthing ba or just because she was undergoing that time of month and being a little overly sensitive...

haay.. i don't need these right now... i really don't... i'm really grateful that i have this journal which no one knows coz it allows me to vent out stuff i'd rather keep to myself....

Not really a newbie

Well, I'm not exactly what you'd call a newbie but little ol me just discovered the power of blogspot recently... I'm kinda getting tired of the fixed layouts available in my other journal, whose location i prefer undisclosed... Although I'm currently using a template, just give me time (sembreak maybe?) and some moments tinkering with frontpage then you'll see a whole new blog...

I remembered telling my soulsis Elga about how I'm planning to create another journal whose design I will make.. herher! Howelz, just give me time... I'm not planning to close my other journal though.. I will post mostly similar entries 'cept maybe for a few...

Owelz, I'm here now... :D